It wasn’t supposed to happen again

12-09-2020 we lost our first pregnancy due to ectopic location in my right tube. I lost baby and tube via surgery

Dr says it’s super rare occurrence and shouldn’t happen again with further pregnancies

02/07/2022 we lost our second pregnancy due to ectopic location…. It went back to where my right tube was and implanted there on the rim on my uterus so it was literally hanging out the hole where my tube used to be…Another ectopic…. I even heard his heartbeat 😔😞 God please don’t hate me. I feel like I’m hated and being punished. Why again? The dr says this is extremely rare and radiologist says he’s never seen anything like it before and he specializes in ectopic.

My little baby. My babies…. I’m so sorry I’ve failed you. I’m so sorry you didn’t even get a true fighting chance. I’m so sorry you didn’t get to live. I’m just so sorry. I’m so torn and broken inside. I’m stuck between hating my body and just hating life for myself. I didn’t think it would hurt this much this time around but it hurts more…. Because I had hope 😔 teaches me.

2 medical terminations in 2 years. This is not fair at all. I’m tired of cheering for everyone else and getting cheated out of my turn.