I’m 3 weeks PP and I’m just tired.

Tired of cluster/breastfeeding. Tired of having a human attached to me. Tired of not eating beans or broccoli because I don’t want a gassy baby. Tired of not being pregnant and still not enjoying a glass of wine because it’s too complicated to pump n dump. Tired of still shooting my self with blood thinners even though I’m not pregnant anymore. Tired of waking up every hour. If I’m not up with the NB then the 5 yr old is having nightmares or I’m getting her up and out to school at 5:45AM then nursing right after she leaves to TRY to get a 2 hr stretch of sleep. Tired of sleeping my day away in order to catch up on sleep and not getting anything done. Tired of being home because I’m usually hustling and bustling at work. Tired of it being cold! Tired of seeing my husband work and have to come home to cook and clean because I just so tired. The guilt eats me up and I feel like a failure. I’m just freaking tired dude. 😪