Hyperemesis Gravidarum

Had this since 5 1/2 weeks and I’m now 13 weeks. My doctor has been helpful but they have only recommended zofran which I go through like clockwork and b6 with unisom. They helped but effects are starting to diminish. Was in the er yesterday for fluids again which also seem to help but only for so long and the er always rushes me out without being able to explain everything or feel better. So I’m at a loss at this point. I’m supposed to call my doctor again today (feel like I’m bugging them at this point, I probably call at least once a week) and not sure what to say. They keep just telling me home remedies and prescriptions. My husband is starting to realize the extremity of this condition and worried baby and I might pass with how bad it’s been getting. I had maybe a week or two of lessening symptoms but they are back now at full force. Everyone keeps telling me it’s normal and just extreme morning sickness or it will pass with the coming weeks. Well I can’t live like this. I have plenty of mental and physical disorders. I have gastroparesis so the nausea and vomiting I feel like are at least 5x worse with the HG. I’m malnourished and losing all the weight I tried for yearsss to gain ): I don’t feel like I even exist anymore. Have a feeling the next step is being laid up in bed or a hospital with feeding tubes and iv pumping through me all the time. Which is something I was close to with my gastroparesis but found ways to manage and get better. Well it doesn’t matter now because all of that is back and then some. I’m terrified at this point. Haven’t seen baby in almost a month. Haven’t even heard heartbeat yet. I don’t feel pregnant anymore just ill. What the hell is happening to me and what do I do at this point. When I go to er or call the doctor I’m usually too sick and out of it to fully explain everything that’s happening. I have an ultrasound appt next week and I’ll try to write everything down so I can ask my doctor then but my husband is making sure I call my doctor today to explain because he’s worried I won’t make it another week like this. How does anyone cope or get through this. I’m having thoughts about terminating cuz I’m not sure I can handle the rest of this pregnancy and that truly breaks my heart that it’s even a consideration. I’ve been researching and listening to survival stories but it’s all the same. “You’ll get through it” there’s nothing else those woman have done that I haven’t already tried. I’m so lost right now. Do I call the doctor today to “demand” more help?? What do I even say at this point? I’m not good with confrontation or getting help for myself but something needs done. I can’t just keep going day to day trying to sleep away all this pain and getting worse. I can’t function. I’m scared of permanent damage. I’m scared of losing another baby. Scared of dying myself. I’m f*cking terrified. And so very depressed. Sorry to rant but like I said I’m at a loss.