Tired 🥺

I honestly don’t think pregnancy is for me I’m so depressed lately ! I’m sick I’ve lost 2 kids & actually having to give birth to 1st I thought ill atleast be happier but it sucks !! pregnancy isn’t for me I’m tired and just depressed ‼️ I’ve already signed up myself for counseling ! But I’m just tired ‼️ I’m sitting here crying as I type this ! I’m starting to hate myself and don’t even know why ! I always dreamed up a big family ( 11 kids ) but once I have my healthy rainbow baby I’m done ‼️