Honestly can never win

Today I noticed something was off with my husband but again he never communicates u til the last second and always at the wrong time

Currently I’m a stay at home mom to two toddlers ages 4 and 2 and am pregnant with our third. This pregnancy has physically kicked my butt daily along with the toddlers I’m always exhausted and in pain.

I’ve been telling my husband my legs hurt and if he could massage me but it just seems to go over his head and he just doesn’t help me. I’ve always cared for the kids bathed them changed them etc and I don’t mind I’m a stay at home mom I’m just used to it since he works.

The other night tmi if you’ve gotten this far he was going down on me and waited until after we had sex to tell me I smelled like rubber down there.. I’ve been to the drs I don’t have a uti I never smell down there but I figured my hormones and ph since being pregnant has been thrown off a bit.

I got offended because the first thing I thought to myself and told him out loud are you insinuating that I cheated on you and that’s why I smell like rubber (condom) mind you that entire day I was freaking with him minus taking my oldest to preschool and waiting until he got out at my aunts house.

Today I asked him what’s wrong bc I was over the oddness he was giving and he waited until he got to work to tell me The thing that happened the other day, about the rubber smell.

And then last night you flat out telling me “why are you taking my pants off” I was trying to massage your body like you asked. And you made it seem like I was your friend trying to have sex with you or something.

We went from having sex everyday to 1 a blue moon.

It hasn’t been once in a blue moon it’s been every other day to every other two days. Reason being is my sex drive is just not there between being pregnant caring for the kids all day and breastfeeding as well it’s just not there like it used to be and for whatever reason he feels like I need to be the one to always start it and I’m tired of it.

I told him in response to his text to me I was with you that day idk why the rubber smell was there

I was mad I was hurt and in pain and you never help or take care of me I’ve been telling you this pregnancy has been rough on me physically and it’s like you don’t care

It’s not once in a blue moon You play your video games for hours on end I get tired waiting up for you I take care of the kids all day with no help By the end of the day I’m exhausted on top of this pregnancy All you want to do is play video games and i get it’s your stress relief and you have fun but you can’t expect me to wait and not be tired when it’s 2am

He then said that’s not true bc you told me to continue playing

To that I said Aside from yesterday me telling you to play you play all the time for hours if I tell you to get off I hear it later I never get to play blah blah blah

Or you constantly get texts from the guys and it just makes me feel bad

I’m constantly the bad guy. I’m the bad guy for telling you to play and then not giving you sex after we watch an hour long tv show until 2 am and mind you I have to be up at 7 the next day to be a stay at home mom and be with the kids by myself until they sleep. I’m the bad guy for telling you to get off and then later I hear I never get to play. I can’t ever win

If you’ve gotten this far thanks for reading and letting me vent now I’m just gonna go curl up in a ball and cry