Update on food bank first time

I just wanted to thank people for taking the time to be kind.

Today wasn't the hardest days of my life I've had way worse. It was a day I never thought I'd need. My husband is still upset and he is hating on himself for not making enough money. We are a hard working family. Judt middle class. We've had no debt besides medical bills and mortgage. We live modestly. We have always been givers and today we had to be takers and it was hard.

I was humbled by the food we got and unpacking it all. Then I was completely surrounded by it and the heaviness of it sank in. I can't cry anymore today. We can't provide for our family. We need vehicle repairs we need to pay our bills that are due two days before our checks clear. We need to get on top of life.

How does one get in this situation. It didn't happen overnight. It took a few year. It took a home emergency that cost 30k to have our plumbing redone and septic. It took not taking out credit card debt or a lean on our property. It was me being diagnosed with infertility and then having an unplanned miracle baby. It took rising healthcare costs. It was me being handicapped and not being able to work long hours and take care of our little ones anymore.

My husband is feeling less of a man. We don't have extra anything. I don't know the last time I ate out. Or bought something I or my husband needed. We just go without. We don't qualify for any assistance programs. My church kicked us out (due to me being married outside my faith.) We don't have family to turn to as they are all elderly. We have been on this path for so long trying so hard. Today was the day that broke us. I'm trying to be positive and I am not. Will I have to go back to the food bank next month probably. I will probably just do it in secret though so my husband doesn't fall apart.

I really took offense to some comments and chosen not to read them because you were lecturing as if we haven't explored every avenue with collections agents, community programs, government, and Healthcare. Middle class makes to much for those. We qualify for nothing. We make just above but not enough. We made amazing financial decisions and have no credit debt we are so frugal it is insane. Before you lecture please have enough heart to maybe just listen and say a prayer. Thank you.

I'm going to give my worries up to God as they are too much for me to burden on my own.

Lastly I just wanted to say what I saw there today at the food bank. The volunteers they looked like me. The people filling out forms needing donations they looked like me. The lady on crutches she looked like me. The vehicles in the parking lot looked like mine. There was no difference between any of us. I'm not sure if it made me feel better or sad that we were all so easily in this position. The lines were so easily crossed and connected between us.