That conversation was awkward but I didn’t care

Last year or maybe longer (I think) I had a hemorrhagic cysts on my ovary that ruptured. I was in so much pain I called my gynecologist for an emergency appointment. I went in and had a pelvic exam and an ultrasound. Found out I was bleeding into my internal organs. It wasn’t deadly, it was just coming from that ruptured cyst. To my surprise he offered surgery to literally suction the blood out of my abdomen. If you don’t know, blood is an irritant to your internal organs. It makes them swell and it’s excruciating. I said no to surgery. I don’t want to be cut into unless it’s life or death, at least I didn’t at the time. He told me “you’re going to be in a lot of pain as your abdomen continues to fill with blood. If you go to the ER I want you at my ER.

I regretted saying no to surgery with every fiber of my being. It felt like I was being ripped apart and filled up with tiny razor blades. It hurt to breathe. I went to his ER and had to be shot up with morphine. By the time I was in that much pain the ER doctor on call there said the next day I would be better so I opted out of surgery then too.

I then had a follow up appointment with my doctor and he did an ultrasound of my exploded ovary and I told him that without a doubt in my mind that I would have surgery if this happened again.

Random side note: his colleague in his office is his wife. He has always told me “if I am not available, ask for her. She does everything identical to me and I trust her with all of my patients without a doubt.”

Yesterday I called their office.

And I say my doctors name and I’m like look I need you to get the message across that I’m pretty sure another cyst has ruptured and in about 48 hours I’m going to be in misery. I need an emergency appointment.”

“I’m sorry but he’s not available until next week.”

“I’ll take his wife.”

“Do what.”

Then it hit me how that sounded (lol)

“I’m asking for his wife. I don’t remember her name but PLEASE CALL HIS WIFE AND ASK HER IF SHE WILL TAKE ME AS A NEW PATIENT.”

“Will do.”

So I’m going to see my gynecologists wife today for the first time and she can do surgery on me too if she wants to. I fully trust him and if he trusts her I do too.

I can’t do that again. I cannot fucking do that again. I was like a swollen tick I had so much blood in my abdomen. I’m already in so much pain and I’m shaking and having anxiety at the mere thought of it getting as bad as it was last time I was literally crying on the phone with that receptionist. His wife actually called me back herself and told her what he said and she had no problem taking me.