I'm so tempted...

May 21, 2021 my husband and I lost our first baby at nearly 9 weeks pregnant. We had found out we lost the baby at the appointment they were going to draw my blood to find out the gender and any disabilities or ailments the baby might very had. It was one of the hardest days of my life... December 21, 2021 my dad, who was my best friend my whole life, I was a total daddy's girl growing up, passed away... it's been a hard year full of death, grief, and loss. It's almost been a full year since my husband and I conceived and lost our baby... it's so hard... and every woman around me literally that I associate myself with is pregnant. Or is getting pregnant... and I can't do it anymore... I struggle with horrible PCOS/ fertility issues... my husband and I just recently moved and are staying with my mother in law until we get our own place. Recently, I've been so tempted to buy fertility helps from Pink Stork. It's so weird for me to not have a baby to take care of... I don't even have a pet, not even a fish... and every part of my being feels like I want to care for and nurture preferably a baby but anything will do. I'm so tempted to just make pregnancy happen or at least help myself towards that achievement by buying fertility help products from Pink Stork but my husband and I aren't in the most ready place in life to do that right now. But I'm so tempted!! I just want that little bundle of joy to hold, take care of, and nurture.... it's not fair that everyone else gets that but I dont.... it's just not fair...

Please help!! What should I do?