Marriage help

You guys I need help, I’ve been married for over a year. We waited till marriage to have sex for religious reasons, the sex isn’t good but I don’t care, regardless I’m so attracted to him and I love him so much, and I just wanna do it with him regardless. I am way younger than him. Maybe it’s my sex drive? Anyways he almost never initiates it. I give him handjobs and send him sexy pics without him ever asking. There were times were he shot me down because he was too tired. Other times he fell asleep without saying anything. And then when I tell him how I feel. He says he didn’t say anything because I was on my phone or he THOUGHT I wouldn’t wanna do it? Just excuses OR he gets very mad and just storms out. Other times he has reassured me that he’s very attracted to me. But continues to act the same to this day. He only initiates the day after I’ve complained, almost to get me to shut up? And then doesn’t do it again. And he does seem to enjoy it. But why doesn’t he ever seem to be upset that we’re not doing it? Why is he so fine with it. He sleeps so well. I know relationships aren’t all about sex. But we just got married a year ago. I thought we’d at least be rabbits in love in the beginning… if we’ve started out this way where will we be later. I hear how other guys always wanna do it with their wives. Makes me so insecure