I think he’s the one to literally break me

I have dated a few men. I have had one long term relationship. The last one lasted almost a year and he broke my heart.

He was abusing me.

I’ve never had problems dating. Never had problems finding anyone, never an issue.

My issue is I attract the worst men and I don’t know what I’m doing wrong anymore so I just don’t.

I do not have any desire for sex or intimacy. I just don’t want anyone and I want to be alone. I’m beyond tired of being hurt. I do not want these men.

I want marriage and a happy marriage at that. With trust, and love and kindness. But I am straight up no longer willing to open myself up anymore and I don’t know what to do. I’m 25 about to be 26 and have multiple reproductive issues and children are probably out of the cards for me and not by choice but because I can’t find anyone good enough to father my children. I’m NOT the type of person to just make babies a year in. It will be a long time with someone before I even considered feeling safe enough to get pregnant.

Yet I look at all these pursuers and I’m like I literally don’t even wanna touch yall, leave me alone

People are telling me this is when “the one” *gag*

Will walk into my life. I won’t be looking.

He might get decked bro I’ve been through some shit, tell him to wait a minute.