Silent miscarriage

So I had a silent misscariage and took misoprostol vaginally and went through my miscarriage at home this past weekend. I’m a little sad because I felt like this was my son that I’ve been praying for. My spouse wants to try again soon after the bleeding stops. One part feels like I’m ready and another part is not cause what if I miscarry again? I keep telling myself god has something bigger in store for me. And trying to remain positive. If any of you ladies went through this what was your coping mechanism? How long after the miscarriage did you bleed? And how soon after did you try again and conceive?