Idk what to do 😩

My boyfriend has been icing me out. He won’t talk to me anymore about personal stuff or hell even abut the shit that happens at work on a day to day. Every time I speak he seems so uninterested and annoyed I immediately shut down and don’t wanna talk anymore and it’ll start a fight. He doesn’t understand just cause he says he cares and wants to hear doesn’t mean he isn’t show that same energy. Also part of me feels like I’m being dramatic cause I know I can do the same to him like if I’m in the middle of typing a text and he starts talking chances are I’ll miss it, or I’ll be so tired that I zone out and miss a whole story he’s just told me. I feel like he’s punishing me for doing that to him but I try so hard to be attentive and responsive. I tried talking to him about it the other night and pretty much ended in me incoherently sobbing cause I can’t do confrontation and him trying to get me to calm down. I feel like I’m ruining my relationship! I love this man and I try so hard and the last thing I want is for him to feel like he has to do what I’m doing to him for me to finally realize just how annoying and rude it is 😔 I also don’t wanna make excuses for poor behavior as well. I know I need to talk to him and actually talk instead of cry but it’s hard I know he won’t leave over a simple conversation on how to better our relationship I’m just so scared cause of my past relationship trauma.