I’m nonbinary and I know people who support it but none of them care about me as a person. And everyone who cares about me doesn’t support my feelings, sexuality, or expression. I thought I found someone who did. One singular person. But I just found out he doesn’t. He told me to my face he’ll always be transphobic and homophobic. He doesn’t understand, accept, or support it and no one can ever change his mind. Doesn’t even want to let anyone try. He knows I’m transitioning and he knows I’m bi and he said that he was cool with it. But I’m always just going to be a girl to him, my love of women always less than. I tried so hard to not let it get to me but I can’t hold it in anymore. There’s no one I can turn to. No one who will use my chosen name, no one who will hang out with me or date me. I’m always just going to be alone. I hate liking girls. I hate being uncomfortable in my own body. I hate feeling sick when someone says my name. I hate the happy feeling I get when someone calls me “they”. I hate loving my current androgynous expression. I hate myself. I don’t know if I can do this. Or how long I’ll be able to keep going without anyone. I don’t even know what to do.