I hate being me I hate my colour skin 😭

From growing up in Britain I have always been cast out because I'm tanned. I've only started to feel this hate as I've got older. I'm 26 and I always feel like the odd one out where I go. It's disgusting this is a issue in the uk!!! My family (English side) are so racist but yet these are my mother. Grandma, grandfather etc. my father is turkish so I'm half English half turkish. I have my mums little nose but I have my dads big lips, dark eyes, really curly hair. I am sick of people treating me differently, I'm sick of people saying I'm a foreigner 😭 I have a very English name but when people ask what it is they expect something different and look shocked that my name is a "English" name. I can't truly accept myself because the way I've grown up. I've grown up with a very racist family taking about foreigners so badly yet they forget I'm half Turkish too. My family are good people as in caring, they have good jobs. They would help anyone BUTTT my nan and grandad grew up with just white people and have turned bitter as they have got old. To me they aren't that good if they have this whole big issue with colour. In the uk most of the people around me are always belittling foreigners saying "go back home" " fuck off back to your own country" " it's the foreigners who take our jobs and our money our houses". How can I get over this????? I just want to be happy and it's hard, I can't cut off family at the same time I don't know what to do!!!