I don’t think i can marry my bf

I love my boyfriend i really do. We’ve been together on and off since eighth grade. In high school we wanted to be married by now but we’re not…

AND THANK THE LORD WE’RE NOT

When we were younger i guess we thought all it took to be married was being in love and as I’m nearing my mid 20s i am realizing that is not the damn case

We love each other that’s the big thing but then there are so many things like we don’t agree on vaccinations and I’m assuming that’s a big thing

And First of all this man drives me bat shit crazy. Like holy shit he loves to pick on me even when we were kids he used to do that but i cannot keep getting riled up just to make him crack a smile

He is SUCH A MOMMAS BOY like i understand he is an only child and I’m the youngest of my family so my dad treats me like a baby. But i am trying to break away from that meanwhile mr man over here had to stop his mom from working the other day so she could get up and make him dinner. I’m not looking for a man whose a chef or anything but she made him A SIDE SALAD. Like df??? You’re 23 years old and can’t put some lettuce and cucumbers in a damn bowl by yourself??

Also he’s a big old baby he’ll be like MY BACK HURTS every other damn day and yet he won’t go to a chiropractor and he works at Home Depot WHERE HE LIFTS HEAVY SHIT EVERY DAMN DAY. and he’s always crying about his stomach having issues meanwhile he’s eating a microwaved Salisbury steak for dinner and i try to tell him to drink smoothies to get his fruit and veggies in and he’ll be like “no because once i had a smoothie and it made me poop” so now he’s gone to the doctor to get medication for his stomach and I’m like Dude if you didn’t eat so poorly you wouldn’t need medication????

He got a puppy a while ago and for some bat shit reason didn’t get him trained so now as a full grown dog he still acts like a wild little thing and it annoys the hell out of me because HE WONT GET HIM TRAINED. he’s always biting people and stealing his shoes and he doesn’t listen and every time he acts up, my boyfriend just pushes him away and acts like one day he’s gonna wake up and magically know how to be an obedient dog. The other day his dog jumped up on him and his soft ass head hit my boyfriends chin and he was acting like he got shot and his mom was freaking out offering him benadryl. And every time i mention that he needs to go to dog school he gets upset

He doesn’t clean anything!! I don’t mean organize, like he’ll organize his room, it’s not cluttered or anything but he doesn’t CLEAN. Like i mean get the Fantastic out and spray shit down and make it sparkle!! His home is icky and it grosses me out like there is no reason a stain i saw last week should still be there

Also i don’t think i wanna be pregnant because it doesn’t look fun and i don’t like babies because even though they’re cute, they’re gross and a lot of work and money. I’d rather adopt a child but he’s like “i don’t wanna raise a kid that’s not mine” which i don’t agree with because even if the kid isn’t yours by blood, that’s still YOUR child

So yeah i could go on. It sucks because even though i may sound like i want to throw things at him (i do) i still am in love with him. He’s my childhood sweetheart and I’ve never kissed or liked any other guy and he hasn’t done anything with any other lady. And when I’m around him i feel so happy and when he holds me i never wanna let go but grrr of course growing up has to come with all of this other stuff