Changed my mind about getting pregnant but I think it’s too late

Me and my boyfriend have been together for 5+years now, and we’ve been talking about having a baby for what seems forever now. We’re in a good relationship, good environment and we decided to try to get pregnant, we both were for it. Fast forward to now I’m pretty sure I’m pregnant I’ve missed my period we had sex on my fertile days, but my mind is in the state of there’s no way I can be? Me? Not now.

This has put me in a different mind set to where I feel like I’m not ready for this, it’s too soon I was for it, ready, excited- but now I’m worried for the result to be positive? Is this a normal feeling? He wants me to be pregnant but I’m hoping it’s negative now..

I plan to take a pregnancy test later tonight when he’s home.

We both planned this idk what came over me but I’m nervous. How do I go about this? Is it normal to have second thoughts when it’s actually answer time?

Update: I used some cheap tests strips I took 3 and they all came out negative.. I’m very upset but he is definitely taking it harder then me..