What would you do?

About 6 years ago I met this guy Dave, we went on a couple dates but nothing came of it. I liked him alot, but I was very shy and awkward at the time. I bumped into Dave a year later and he was showing interest in me, but by then I was in a relationship with someone else.

My ex and I broke up 18 months ago, after a few months Dave messaged me and found out I was single. He asked me to go on a date, i wasn't ready and didn't pursue it. Later on in the year I reached out to him, we went on a date (I had the best time). I have 2 kids by the way, my daughter fell ill and around this time we lost contact again.

Earlier this year we started talking again. I've explained my situation with my life, I'm in the middle of a custody battle and I said I wouldn't be able to see him for now. I don't wanna complicate things since my ex will try to find any reason to make me look like a bad mother. There's just over a month until we go to court now. Dave has been okay about everything, I wanted to keep in the loop so he knows I like him, but also so he can decide if he wants to "wait for me" or leave things alone.

The other day he was asking when he'd see me and I said after I go to court. He mentioned only seeing me about 5 times the entire time he's known me. I feel really bad like maybe I should let him go? I know he's still probably dating people which is no concern of mine.

Maybe these obstacles are a sign it isn't meant to be. Sometimes I wonder if I'm still holding onto what we had in 2016!! I really can't stop thinking about him though.

What would you do if you were in my shoes?

Also : I don't think this man is the loml or anything BTW