Problems in my marriage about sex life

Okay so my husband and I have known each other since high school and about three years ago he told me his kink. He wants to see me get pleased by another man or myself do things to other men. Well I honestly don’t have the same feelings towards this kink. I literally don’t want anyone else nor do I know how to find anyone that I trust to hit up for that kind of stuff, I mean I’m married. Anyways he got mad at me yesterday because most of the time before/during anything sexual he always brings it up and I sometimes talk dirty to him about it but I’m never being serious and I can’t tell when he is or not because one minute he is and the next isn’t. Well yesterday I thought it was one of those times he wasn’t serious and I told him I could see what I could do like flirting with him. Well when I got home he was literally upset with me because I didn’t go see another man. I obviously got upset and said he had no right to be mad at me because I didn’t go fuck another guy and I said something along those lines again. Not even thinking he took that as me kink shaming him but I honestly didn’t mean to.

Now he says he’s thinking about how our marriage will work and what he can do to be truly satisfied by me… I honestly don’t think it’s fair because I already gave a guy head for him when I honestly didn’t want to but I wanted to please him, and it did for a minute but now he wants more and more. This has literally been a subject of us fighting for three years now.

HELP