rant/venting

does anyone actually enjoy pregnancy? because so far i'm absolutely hating every aspect of it. and faking like it's so amazing in front of people is highly exhausting to say the least. can't tell your family how you really feel because they get upset can't tell your doctor how you really feel about it because oh well then you shouldnt have gotten pregnant or well have you thought of adoption just because you HATE being pregnant. this shit is a full blown living hell and if i would have been told the truth about getting my tubes tied i swear i would have done it before this had a chance of happening. the lack of energy is irritating the not being able to take anything for pain but tylenol is ridiculous i want a damn advil. the no smoking is driving me nuts i want a cigarette. the watch so you don't fall be careful this or that could hurt the baby oh my god i'm so tired of it if i fall i fall the kid is in me it will be fine for fuck sake! the oh have you thought about what your gonna do when it's here the expecting you to have any form of connection with something you can't see the constant questions on if your breastfeeding or not like what the hell. then there's the all mighty have you thought about a pediatrician yet do you know what your having oh how's the baby. like i'm really going to know how the baby is i'm not a damn psychic all i know is what i see on a scan.