2 stubborn people

My boyfriend and I are both stubborn. We both want to feel wanted, but us being stubborn (or probably childish) we don’t initiate sex. Unless he’s really horny he’ll just say “let’s fuck”. He doesn’t touch me the way I’d like to be touched. He doesn’t play with my 🐱 lol. He barely makes out with me. He’ll give me like 3 kisses and that’s it. I’m like big on the physical stuff.

I was naked laying beside him, and he did not make a move at all. He just went to bed. I miss feeling wanted, I miss being touched.

I know he feels too that I don’t initiate sex, but I fear being rejected or something for some reason. I think past trauma, when I was like idk 17/18 I thought my ex wanted sex. So I tried to rub his dick with my hand, and he pushed me away & said “not right now” and went to bed lol. Forever traumatized even though I’m now 23.

I’m like big on sex, and this is just like making me distant. On the other hand, he’s amazing in general. He takes care of me, my babies, loves me, and is so kind & giving.