I have my March baby and a 2 year old. I love my baby, I do, but my 2 year old has my heart still. I don’t feel like I love them equally because I know my toddler and we have bonded for years and he has a personality. He’s getting to the age now where he can do fun things for the first time and I keep missing it because my baby has to nurse or only wants me to hold him. It sucks. This morning was my toddlers first Easter egg hunt and I had to miss it because the baby had to nurse and it was too cold outside so i was stuck on the couch feeding him. Again. I’m getting so resentful of my poor new baby and I know it’s not fair but I’m tired of missing out on time with my toddler. I miss him even though he’s right here.

He used to call out for me when he had a bad dream but last night he called for his dad because he’s been spending all the time with him lately. I was stuck, again, feeding the newborn. I hate this. I guess I just need to vent.