Feel like sh*t

I feel so bad, my baby boy is a month old now and I still panic every time someone holds him or feel angry about them holding him and I hate it when people take photos of him especially without asking.

It’s not with everyone just a few people

I breast feed and bottle feed but I tell people I just breast feed so they can’t feed him unless it’s my partner, sister or my mum.

This is my 4th baby so I didn’t think I would care so much. I wasn’t like this with my other 3 so I’m really not sure what’s going on

I lost my father 2 months ago so I’m not sure if I just have so much fear something is going to happen to him or not. But I hate feeling like this any advice how I can get through it ?