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Yesterday (12/18) I went in for my 12 week check up which included the NT scan and the first trimester blood test and although our Dr thought he saw a flicker of a heartbeat, when my husband and I went over to have the actual sonographer do the NT scan I knew there was something wrong when she didn't talk to us or give us any ultrasound pictures. Sure enough the baby did not have a heartbeat and according to the surgeon who did my D&C the baby died at 9 weeks. Although I understand the statistics about MCs and I understand that this is what the body is "supposed to do" in the event that there is something wrong with the baby, BUT it doesn't lessen the pain. I will never get to kiss and hold my baby. My husband and I had just announced the pregnancy on my birthday 12/12 and a week later we get the worst possible news. I don't want to seem like a cry baby so for anyone reading this thank you for letting me vent. As horrible as this has been, I've been up reading people's stories and I don't feel so alone. Here's to all of us being able to get pregnant with healthy beautiful babies ❤️