Losing myself

Hey ladies, so 2 years ago I lost my dad due to an Illness. Now my 14 year old dog is dying and I’m even more of a mess. He’s been here for most of my life that I can remember and I feel like without him here my life will never be the same. I live at home and nobody in my house really talks about it, they all argue at each other while on the inside I am trying my best to keep myself alive. I just can’t imagine my life without him in it and I know this is apart of life that is going to happen eventually but I don’t want it to. I can’t function properly and I don’t have many friends to talk to about it as we are close but not that close to each-other. I don’t know what kind of repose i am looking for but I just wanted to share and maybe someone will know what im going through.