life advice for a college grad

I am approaching graduating college this weekend. I started college with friends, loved drinking and partying, had an active and healthy life. And then Covid hit my sophomore year and everything changed. I was away from my friends for a while and continuing school online - I met my boyfriend in quarantine (who is now my only friend). We return to school but it is still online and I was in an apartment with my friends and we spent a lot of time together because we barely left the house because there were no in person classes and social events were practically non-existent. I spent a lot of time with my boyfriend bc that was the only way I felt like I could get out of the apartment. They were starting to bother me and get on my nerves quite a bit, but I loved them. Senior year and we moved to a house. One girl was new in our group and I didn’t like how she acted (was mean, self-absorbed, and brought a sex offender into our home bc she thought it was cool and taboo to date him). I started to hate partying and drinking. Spending more time with my boyfriend. I felt like I was changing and they were not accepting of me - would beg me to go out and make me feel bad when I didn’t want to party. Long story short, I fell away from all of them. I stopped hanging out with them even on casual occasions bc all they did was talk about drinking/hooking up with random people… not to mention my anxiety taking a toll on me (now in therapy for). I just always wanted to be alone, and if I didn’t, I wanted to be with my boyfriend bc I felt like he actually understood me and they didn’t. The girl I didn’t like disrespected me and I reacted angrily and she ended up egging my car and texting me mean things. So I moved out early. Now I am living in my parents house (have been for the last month of college) and finished my undergrad in my bed this morning bc all my classes are still online. I see all of my old friend group hanging out on social media and I just have to unfriend them because it hurts to be reminded I don’t have girl friends anymore. That things ended the way they did. I’m grateful for the support I have but I feel lonely and like I have something to apologize for. It just sucks that college wasn’t how I imagined it to be, that I didn’t end up being close to the people I thought I would be at the end of all this. I feel like I’ll never have the opportunity to make friends again and it’s making me spiral. Any advice? I feel so young and naive.