Thankful

I'm suffering from PPD/PPA. On top of that, I've suffered chronic depression my entire life. I also attempted suicide this year. I'm going to counseling and meditation/medication management. Everyday is hard. There's days that I don't want to be a wife and a mother. But deep down, I know that, that's my mental illness. Today, I really enjoyed my children. I watched them laugh and play, and happiness came over me. The kind of happiness that I haven't felt in awhile. I'm taking babysteps with my depression, but I do know that my kids keep me going. I love them so much. I often don't feel worthy of living from time to time. But my kids keep me fighting. They're my world. Thank God for them.