Orgasms

I need some advice ladies, I don’t think I’ve ever orgasmed and I have no idea what it’s supposed to feel like. I masterbate but it just stops feeling good? There isn’t a massive omg moment like how it’s always explained and i’ve searched up what an orgasm feels like, like your muscles just completely relax and you give in? I don’t really understand. Me and my boyfriend have sex quite a bit and i’ve squirted before and don’t get me wrong, it always feels amazing and he tries to make me cum but it always stays at the same level, it’s different when he fingers me than when i do it to myself (he feels a lot better) it’s so good and i have to stop him because it feels too good like i can’t deal with how good it feels? I’ve tired to hold on and let him keep going because maybe i’m about to cum but it just remains at that level and it’s excruciatingly annoying. i feel so bad because he really wants to make him cum and i think he feels like it’s his fault but it really isn’t.

Has anyone else experienced anything like this? I’m so confused