First just let me state that..

I have a good relationship with my sister in law

And I get along well with my in-laws family

Now the way we got married or engaged wasn’t the most conventional way… it was very last minute. His parents wanted us married before we moved in together but we had already had a place and we were already planning to move in together within a month so that gave us less than a month to sorta plan our mini wedding dinner.

Long story short I didn’t know how to set boundaries… so his family basically chose my dress and chose the whole decorations/color scheme and location. They even went as far as choosing who will do my makeup/hairstyle for our day.

Our color scheme was / red,gold(yellow) black &white which gave me Mickey Mouse vibes …

My dress was velvet red and my makeup was SEVERELY CAKED ON she even super glued a fake nose piercing..and though I made it clear im allergic to wearing fake lashes she insisted I wore them and that “it was only for one day”.

I was not confident AT ALL and i didn’t even want my husband to look at my face. But his family said it was fine and thats how i showed up to my mini wedding … every time my husband would try looking at me id tell him to look away bc i felt ugly …

My dream wedding would of been: light, dainty , soft pink,goldwhite and just fairy whimsical vibes all around … very much the opposite of what we actually had.

Now the reason why im not so excited for my sister-in-law‘s engagement dinner is because it’s going to be at the same location as mine was and she’s even described how she wanted it to be , which by the way she described it is EXACTLY how my dream wedding would’ve been.

I am happy she’s getting engaged I’m just a little sad that it’s gonna be held at the same spot that ours was and that she’s literally gonna be having my dream wedding at the same spot

I’m happy for her but I’m sad that I’m gonna go there and be like this is how I would’ve wanted my engagement to be but knowing I didn’t have any control on how it actually ended

Am I the asshole for feeling this way

Thank you for the feedback I really needed it !! Honestly you guys are right i am being jealous and its my fault for not setting boundaries !

Thank you for opening up my eyes 🫠 im embarrassed but y’all are right its not her fault!!

Truly appreciate it !! Needed that to clap me back into reality .