My excitement is gone…

I was surprised and excited to be pregnant at first because we’ve had multiple losses and we’re gonna do IVF and then it naturally happened. I’m 12w4d and all my husband and I do is fight. We were on a family vacation and he even said to me if it didn’t change “there would be consequences” and that I’d “lose him”. Imagine saying that to your pregnant wife. I have a child from a previous marriage whom I adore to bits. They are super excited to be a sibling and they are so excited about the baby. My mom is excited. My friends are excited. But me? It’s like I am detached. I’m not excited anymore. I also feel like my husband doesn’t get pregnancy and no longer understands me. In fact, im usually left feeling super unheard, annoyed, and talked down to. Or like the blame gets shifted to me all the time.

That’s it. I just needed to vent. Im really trying my best. My best to stay happy and positive but man oh man… it’s tough.