Let's talk about my ex🤢

Ok so I dont really have anyone to vent to so I'm doing it on here and its gonna be long

❌TW❌ if you have any trauma please dont read this unless you can

Ok so me and my ex started dating on August 24th of 2021. We broke up 7 months later, but anyways we were 13 and 14, I hadn't turned 14 yet and 2 weeks into our relationship he took my virginity and I havent been the same since. I would come home from his house mad or upset that I even had to come home and he made me think my family hated me by saying guess we can clearly see who isnt the favorite. He would talk shit about my whole family and he treated them like kids especially my parents. About 4 months into our relationship he always wanted sex everytime we were together even at school and I would say no but he would say it will be fast or well I'm horny so I'll just go to sleep since you dont wanna or he would ignore me till I left his house. He started abusing me emotionally and made me hate myself and be so insecure with the things he would say. He would say your perfect it's just your butt needs to be bigger and I stopped eating and when I would eat he would call me a fatass. Ater a couple weeks of this he would hit me really hard and one time he thought I was pregnant and so he punched my stomach over and over again and he would choke me and pin me down and beat me up. Then about 5 or 6 months in he started raping me if I said no and I would just pretend like it didnt hurt and now people at my old school found out and he tells them in just lying because we broke up. Now I have bpd and I have to take antidepressants and I'm turning 15 in 5 months.