Pregnancy test PTSD

Today is my expected period day. Had some light brown spotting from 5 DPO until 9 DPO and then it stopped. Had some pregnancy like symptoms that entire timeas well. Have some slight cramping today and I’m extremely terrified to test 🥺. I suffered from an ectopic pregnancy last year this exact month. (June 8, 2021 I found out my pregnancy was ectopic). I’ve been trying to conceive again ever since my OB gave me the red light and it’s just been so difficult, anyone ever experience this fear? 😩 baby dust to all! ✨✨✨