Just made it to 29 weeks with this pregnancy. I’ve had hyperemesis this entire time on top of gastroparesis that’s been ongoing for years. I’ve honestly been completely miserable and haven’t been able to enjoy much of this pregnancy. I take lexapro too for anxiety and depression but really it just makes me feel numb. Nothing has been helping to relieve these symptoms except marijuana which I used up until last week 🤷🏻‍♀️ it is what it is I don’t need your opinion in that area. My doctor knows.

Yesterday I totaled my car going about 25mph. Rear ended a truck with a hitch and completely crushed my front end. We were both okay no big deal but I’m out of a vehicle. Went to the doctor to get baby checked and she is fine. I’m slightly concussed and sore all around. I am genuinely sad though.

Truly feel like nothing has gone right this past year. Husband and I are more distant because I’m always sick and can’t do much most of the time. My mom has been my biggest supporter but I feel terrible putting so much on her at times. We also work together, which I haven’t been able to do as much with being sick. I’m losing all my money and can’t seem to catch up. I have no motivation to accomplish anything anymore and I can’t stand being alone in my house. I’m stuck here now though and just waiting around for baby still. The fact that I still have to care for a lil human after all of this is overwhelming to me. I never thought I’d be a mother and now everything is out of wack around here.

I am depressed, exhausted, hurting, and regretting getting pregnant. There I said it, I regret being pregnant and not being able to do enough for baby, my husband, family, and home.

I am a mother to be and have absolutely no idea how I’m gonna get through this.