Should I leave him?

TRIGGER WARNING:

A year ago, my boyfriend told me I would be better off dead and to do my daughter and him a favor and just kill myself. He had been drinking which I know isn’t an excuse but I forgave him… well I guess tried to.

Lately life has been so hard and he’s been so mean that I have actually entertained the thought of “what if he was right?” I made a list of reasons not to kill myself because I honestly do not want to die but I hate feeling so worthless and unloveable by him. I hate feeling like if I walk away I’m ruining my daughter’s future. I hate my life right now and I just want it to get better. So instead of looking at my partner and feeling hope, I look at him and my mind races with him telling me to kill myself.

I talked to him about it and he told me to get over it because it was a year ago and he was drunk. So maybe I should just get over it, but I just can’t. It makes me sick.

I don’t know what to do 😭