I’m in a situation where I love my partner, but it’s like love like I’ve felt for him before. It’s dying down because of how he treats me, I can’t leave because I’m financially dependent. I have no family to go to. I grew up with no one to depend on so when we got together he became the center of the world and now I’m just a sitting duck in this relationship. It’s hard for me to get jobs in the country that I’m in. I’ve tried doing work from home jobs. Going out to work is not an option. I’m pregnant with an infant and I stay at home babysitting and making what I can. It’s definitely not enough to sustain me. I know what I should do. I should become dependent and leave. A shelter is not an option. Don’t judge me in the comments unless you grew up like me. Being abused by your mother and step father, having your biological father not taking care of you even though he could afford to, have your half sisters make you know how much you don’t belong… basically growing up as the Cinderella sister who gets all the bad treatment. I’ve been hit with a class bottle to my face, I’ve been stepped on and kicked, I’ve been molested, I’ve been lied on, I grew up not being able to talk to anyone or talk about my problems. So when I left with my bf after I was KICKED OUT AT 18, I had no choice but to go.

Ps. I live in Jamaica.

Edit* how my partner treats me now. He get violent (doesn’t beat me) but he will hold me in positions I can’t move and tell me I’m weak, he was flirting with other girls and could not give an account for his actions. Yesterday, I told him that if he cheats, why doesn’t he think I can too and maybe I should start taking other males seriously (I said this to piss him off) and he choked me.