EDIT**** So people are saying I’m in the wrong, yes there is a lot more too it. So for the first 7/8 months of our relationship he would not stop going on about her, comparing me to her, calling me her name, he then realised after I’d told him the severity of it and completely denied ever meaning to make me feel the way he did… some of it carried on and I was stupid enough to forgive him. 4 years on from the start, not only do we have my son who is 5, but we have a child together who is 10 months old. I fully began to trust him and think he wasn’t assed about her around 2020.

So I was going through an abortion, it was a bit difficult due to having a few problems n possibly having to travel4 hours, find childcare etc.. I cried with fear and explained how so much more petrifying the travel was. He was drinking watching a film, the next day I woke up early and had a horrible feeling, I couldn’t shake it off. I saw his phone on the bed and just went on it(I have not been on his phone in over a year) I saw his memories on fb n his ex who was supposed to be blocked came up. I went on her name expecting it not to let me, but it went straight to her fb. He tried denying at first he’d unblocked her lol. I’m now left with absolutely hating myself and my appearance, feeling not enough and that he wants every other girl he sees! Do I even have a right to feel like this? When I mention it he goes in a mood. I need advice please girls