Straight fear…

I have two beautiful kids, and am currently pregnant with our 3rd. But, this is my 9th pregnancy total. I’ve never been so scared of losing my baby. There’s always that fear, ya know? But a woman in my state is under criminal investigation following her miscarriage. So now I’m terrified for my unborn baby, and I’m terrified that if I lose this baby, my kids will lose me too. I don’t do anything I shouldn’t, the worst thing I put in my body right now is caffeine. But really, that shouldn’t matter. And, for the other woman, doesn’t matter. She passed the drug test, but they’re still investigating. What more could they even look for? I don’t understand why this is happening. I’m ready to be done having kids after this, and I originally wanted 4 or 5. What’s the world coming to 😭