Hey ladies, I am currently 36 weeks and 1 day with our first son (this is my 3rd pregnancy). I had a pretty difficult pregnancy. We were pregnant with twin boys and we lost one of our sons at 20weeks. I am still carrying him due to his brother and they can’t risk taking him out because it could be dangerous for me and his brother. Well this pregnancy has been hard. Recently I just did a stress test because our sons heart rate got above 190 in ultrasound. Yesterday I went to my maternal fetal medicine appointment and it was still high. But they told me not to be concerned since he was doing his practice breathing. He was weighing 7lbs 3oz. They want to induce me when I’m 38 weeks because they still have to treat it as a twin pregnancy since there is still 2 fetuses. Yesterday a family member had a miscarriage and it brought up so many memories and I have not been able to get it out my head. I feel like I can’t breathe and my anxiety is at a all time high. I just feel mentally drained and that I’m starting to break down. I know doctors have to have a medical reason to induce but I feel like someone is standing on my chest and I just can’t calm down. Is there anyway my doctor could induce sooner? Maybe at 37 weeks? I need to see my son. I need to see he’s okay. I’m mentally and physically drained and I feel like I can’t take a deep breath. Idk what to do