I think I have a huge problem 😔

So several years ago I was married to this one guy. Who I thought could possibly be the one. What a joke that was anyways so he never really took care of himself. Like didn’t ever brush his teeth which to me is gross. But it was fine because honestly we didn’t ever kiss at all. If he did kiss me it was always my forehead. But I mean he did do meth and he hid it from me the whole time we were married. And I didn’t know the signs to look for but you could definitely tell his teeth were just horrible and so gross looking. Which I never brought it to his attention because everyone else did and I could tell. How it bothered him and I didn’t want to make it worse. But however I legit brush my teeth more then I should, like seeing his teeth even still til this day. Like I’ll legit use two different toothpaste. I’ll floss twice and then I’ll use three different mouthwash’s. I’ll do this three or four times a day exactly like how i just said. And I feel like that still isn’t good enough. I feel like I have a problem and I don’t know how to fix it.