Marriage rant.! -Ending marriage

Has anyone ever got married to someone they should of takin more time to learn?

Would u stay with someone who threatens you with divorce every other wk..?

Ok so like we got married then only after 3-6 months realized you fucked up. I married a manipulating, narcissist who I’m afraid as of yesterday is a skit. Too.! And who mentally emotionally abuse me when things don’t go his way.!

All I feel this marriage is about him and using me.! That’s a-whole diff story

I can’t stay with a man who every time has contact with BM he’s nasty to me likes takes all his anger out from her on me

We good until there is a bump in his road and who doesn’t respect value our marriage and every time he gets mad threatens me with a divorce even more these past two months. I can go on about all . I stopped my fertility treatments the day he told me that and he tells his mom I’m extra like how am I supposed to try have a family with someone like that shit not healthy

For example my husband and I both caught covid 19 and he has split joint custody with his bm of his three year old.

He tested negative two days ago but I’m still positive and he insisted on bringing his son here in our little ass studio where there is no way I can be separate from them and continue to keep everyone else safe.

Fast forward it ended in the baby still coming my husband being a sick cuz I was 😷 keeping mask on and worried of safety to him being crazy snatching a lighter from my hand and grasping my me to the point he ripped my skin. He and I been together alittle over a year he’s never got this nasty and then told me I can’t keep a man cuz I’m to extra and all I wanted to do was be safe for his son. He even threatened me I came from last abuse and I had my face broke and he even made threats about wanting to his me in my face so all my bones re break.! I’m not dealing with this fucking meant Al emotional abuse then calls his mom plays victim and acts like I’m crazy I’m like why lie just leave don’t make me seem like the bad guy he said he been wanting out for awhile so go. He tells me when his son goes back to his mom we gonna figure out what we doing I’m heart already left.! It’s next day this man will never apologize for anything but the crazy narcissistic cycle I see always acts like I’m suppose to feel normal and act like nothing happened

I know it’s not much but it’s a start I been here before and I’m always to blame for the bad things men do to me I’m over life.! I’ve been nothing but good to him and his little one and opened up my life and helped him get his son.! I helped this man be free from a criminal charge paid his lawyer off helped him get a new car sold mine for him.! My whole life became his but once my life peace is no longer here then I have to go 🚩

Update: now I feel like more of a piece of shit because I’m still very sick with covid trying to stay strong while being in this controlling marriage and this poor baby now just tested positive for covid & it’s cuz of me.! I tried my best to social distance

Ofcourse I get yelled at cuz I still had my mask on and questioned why I keep going to BR. I’m like I’m still sick 🤦🏼‍♀️ like am I not aloud to try and get better or do anything I just wish I can run away I can’t even take a walk now the worst is I’m stuck till divorce time in this covid disaster .!