Marriage is coming to an end

I feel like my marriage is getting worse, coming to an end.

I talked to him and talked and I just can’t anymore.

I am crying every night, struggling and he doesn’t notice anything.

I don’t know if he is that delusional or what.

He comes home, will play on his phone and I am alone all day long with our toddler so naturally I missed him and I jsut want to talk to him, tell him what our son learned that day and so on.

But everytime I am talking, he isn’t really listening, he isn’t paying attention not to me not to our toddler.

We haven’t had sex in months, I want to start something, he is alway tired. Last time he wanted some, and he started was two years ago before I was even pregnant.

No I don’t think he is cheating, he is home always on time, doesn’t really go out. That’s not it.

But it getting worse.

He does watch porn. He admitted to that. I don’t understand why doesn’t he come to me.

I am guessing I really don’t attack him anymore.

I did talk to him, multiple times. We talk, we list all the things that need to change and then everything stays the same.

So I stopped talking, besides the necessary and he doesn’t even notice how bad it has gotten.

I know I let myself go after the baby, most of the days I don’t even brush my hair, not that it matters it has been in a bun for years now.

I am trying, but even when I put an effort he doesn’t notice.

Doesn’t kiss me when he comes home anymore, literally doesn’t touch me.

I feel like I am drowning, chocking not to cry all the time.