I’m Overwhelmingly Done!

Why does life seem to throw curveballs? I got pregnant with my ex after breaking up and had sex ONE time! I lost that baby at 20weeks. I had another mc shortly thereafter at 6weeks without trying.

After getting married, we tried for almost 2 years before getting pregnant with twins after clomid and an iui. My boys were born healthy and made us so happy!

A few years later, we tried for baby #3. 11 months TTC, took one round of fumara & finally get pregnant with another boy! I was thrilled, until I went in for an appointment at 15weeks and they couldn’t find his heartbeat. Underwent surgery (because my body didn’t expel him on its own). Devastated.

It’s been another 6 months of trying since my last miscarriage. I took fumara this month, and apparently didn’t get the timing right.

I feel defeated. I just want to give up… but my heart really wants one more baby. My husband is against seeing a fertility doctor again because of the cost. I am doing one more round of fumara, then we’re done actively trying. I know life is hard, but my life just seems to throw curveballs at the wrong time. I’m devastated. Heartbroken. Worthless. And scared for it to all happen all over again. 😔