I dont know where to go and who to talk to. I've started to feel like maybe I'm genderfluid. Some days I look masculine and love it... or hate it. Some days I feel very feminine and very happy with it or unhappy with looking feminine. I feel it changes day to day sometimes. My styles that I'm comfortable varies between 1950s housewife and uncle Buck.

I feel weird because I'm 27. I've HATED the idea of being called a man in the past. My mom constantly called me an "ugly and hairy dyke" and constantly talked about how no one would love me if I didn't look like a girl (despite me always liking floral patterns and things like that, it was never good enough) hair on my face gives me anxiety. I have a husband of 7 years that accepted, without even blinking, my coming out as bisexual last year. I feel like if I'm this way, and I come out to him... like he's stuck with a completely different person than he married.

I was abused horribly growing up so its very hard for me to stand up for myself a lot of the time. So it feels like what the point.

I dont feel like anyone understands gender well in our families. Both mine and my husbands sides talk about how they understand gay people but don't understand trans or nonbinary people. I have no one to talk to that understands this stuff.

Its been a long time for me to even want to admit it anonymously. Who do I talk to about this? How do I find others? Am I just misunderstanding the whole idea of genderfluid? I don't want to make light of it.