I tested positive with hsv2 ( genital herpes ) in June after sleeping with someone i trusted enough . they knew they had it and weren’t taking care of it properly. since i found out i had this i’ve been so depressed . i think about it so much . i’m scared . i am ashamed . i know this isn’t my fault but it just sucks dealing with this . this has been by far the worse year for me and finding out u have herpes doesn’t help . people around me made insensitive jokes but they don’t even know i have herpes . it kills me inside because this is my new life … i’ve been catching my outbreaks before they come and calling my obgyn but it’s still hard to even be sexually active because knowing u have this is always in the back of my mind . sometimes i wish it was curable because none of us deserve this . i am currently having a outbreak and i previously told my grandma and spoke with her about me getting herpes and she was very understanding of it and u thought it was ok to vent to her and let her know how i feel until lastnight when i was explaining that i read online that u can’t eat peanuts with herpes and other things cause that can sometimes bring on a outbreak or make one worse and while in explaining to her all of that and my feelings she then says “well maybe u should buy ur own separate personal wash cloths” i said well that’s not how herpes is given or spread , obviously i’m not sharing wash cloths with anyone and after u put it in the washer and dryer it’s clean to use and then she says that i don’t know what i’m talking abt and she doubts i’m correct abt the topic… so i stopped venting and went to walk in my room then she says “ u sure do know how to pick guys huh”. i already feel terrible physically and mentally and her saying that hurt me . words can’t express . i am hurt . i’m angry . i’m sad . i start to think over again why me . i don’t have answers . this is making me sad . i don’t feel good enough . i feel meaningless and most importantly of all i feel like an outcast . i wish people could educate themselves and stop being so insensitive and rude because they lowkey r just making things worse for my life .