3rd ICP baby:(

Well officially at 30 weeks I have been diagnosed with ICP for the third pregnancy in a row. I feel so much like my body failed, ik its not the end of the world and we will get through it, ik everything is a ok, and will be, but it just sucks. I know my cut off was 37 weeks but now its just gunna be alot harder to get fully to 37 weeks in my opinion from my last babies, the goal is 37 weeks, the hope is 37 weeks, the plan is 37 weeks, but having the double wammy of ICP and GD AGAIN along with a now BIGG baby vs my last 2 gd/icp babies who were TINY(5 lbs 7 oz and 5 lbs 8 oz at 36 weeks GA) I have no hopes of getting to 37 weeks which just makes me sad because I will NEVER get the chance to go into labor on my own unless for some crazy reason my waters were to break early again like last time and then they have to induce for that