My ex thinks he’s coming back home

He text my mom saying he’s not done w us and he just needed space and he cares for me but he’ll be back he’s doing what he has to do for us. He hasn’t contacted me at all. His locations is on SURE he’s very sneaky. 2 years ago he was caught on private browser doing dirty stuff at work. I forgave him and now things just had been down hill from that now I kinda resent him and I’m always mad for no reason my mental health feels like lies on crack. I need a therapist for myself bc of the relationship. He turned me into someone I don’t know. We both said hurtful things and he’s been gone since then. Literally though I been going through healing process crying everyday working out doing little things to keep me happy and then crying and laying down sleeping I feel so depressed bc I can’t believe he can give up on us. Do you think I’m wrong for feeling this way or should I work things out w him bc we both love each other. He says he loves me bc he does a lot for me and our kids. But I saw changes in him that show he doesn’t love me. I’m constantly crying w him, I’m constantly having panic attacks, feeling so small w him. He manipulates me so much and makes me feel stupid and stopped buying gifts. I feel like giving up on us bc I already went w out him for so long why stop now ? He wanted space he got it. But I can’t keep crying I wanna beat this healing process and show him I’m not a weak bitch who will take him back anymore. He always says during arguments “ yeah if I leave you’ll be crying again begging for me even after I hurt you” but now I’m just fucking done it hurts badly very bad. My heart can’t take it