Finishing me

So me and my boyfriend have had sex twice and I feel like I'm over thinking this, but okay so we lost our virginitys to each other on dec. 18th and we had sex again on the 20th but both the times he's finished first, and he always talks about how he wants me to cum. But when he finishes and he goes to clean up he tells me to "finish my self off" and he'll be back. And I kinda get annoyed like he doesn't help me afterword. And today he tried jacking off with this one numbing condom so he lasts longer and it numbed him to much so he didn't cum. And he's like really disappointed that he can't and he said he was "close to tears" and idk why it annoyed me so much. Am I being crazy?