Moving

So I’m moving down to North Carolina on Tuesday coming up, and, umm, idk how to feel. I woke up dazed, like I see myself crying and screaming, I’ve been crying all morning. My Childs father is staying in Philadelphia, but I’m moving because I don’t want my child to experience the hustle and bustle of the drama in city life. My bf (child’s father) agrees with me but, as the day gets closer, im just, like im out of it. I texted my bf and told him what was going on with me and he feels bad. I’m moving 8 hours away versus him being able to easily drive an hour and 30 minutes. He assured me that he will be taking days off to come see me, but just the fact that he will be far, Idk how to deal. I took a weekend trip to visit and see if I was gonna like it, and going down, I was dazed and couldn’t think. The day we left he came down and sat with me until I had to get in the car and leave to drive down. I’ve been seeing those bracelets that light up when u touch them. I really wanna get one for us. As im feeling more movement from the baby, the baby seems active when my bf is around, so I also feel bad about that.