To keep things short. Im now diagnosed and my meds along with therapy work well for me now. But getting to this point was not easy. Being undiagnosed really took a toll on my early adult life (im now 25), i wish my mom would have taken me to a doctor as a kid instead of putting it off as me being moody ( I’ve shown symptoms from a early age). But I now don’t have relationships with much family, I have no friends, and I ruined the happiest healthiest relationship I’ve ever been in because of going undiagnosed. Im currently close friends with my ex and he’s very understanding of my situation and is really supportive of me. I wish I could see how things played out with him in a world where I wasn’t bipolar, i miss my former best friend, and I wish I wasn’t so removed from my family. I really just feel lonely, and it’s hard making friends when everyone views a person not having friends as a red flag.