Jealousy?

Je

Jessica

I’m not sure if jealousy is the right word. I’m genuinely happy for her and her family. They found out today that they are having twins ❤️

This friend is very close. We work together every day. We run a licensed daycare together. And just a few weeks ago, we were going to be having babies together also.

But mine ended early. Chemical pregnancy. This is the 4th chemical pregnancy I’ve had. I was really hoping this one would stick and that my close friend and I could experience this journey together.

Now? I don’t know how I feel. Bad. She gets 2. I get none. And I take care of other people’s babies for a living.

My heart just hurts right now. Sending love to anyone out there that may relate to these feelings. They aren’t very pleasant. I keep trying to convince myself I’m not ugly for having them.

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COMMENT (4)

sh

Posted at
I definitely understand the feeling 💔😔🥺 but I wouldn't say you are jealous ❤️

Je

Jessica • Sep 28, 2022
❤️

ar

Posted at
it’s okay to feel this way. it’s not that you aren’t happy for them. it’s just that you wish it was happening to you too. it’s okay to wish it was you too. doesn’t mean youre any less excited for them

Je

Jessica • Sep 24, 2022
Thank you Ariana ❤️