first time having sex ?????

brianna

hi ok so ive (18) been talking to this guy(18) n hes leaving for the military soon. we agreed to not do anything serious since he is going away. i want to have sex with him b4 he leaves but i am going to be ovulating around that time. i live in texas and my biggest fear is getting pregnant and not being able to get an abortion. also this would be my first time having sex n i have so many insecurities with my body that ive just been in my head about it. i know hes attracted to me bc he lets me know all the time. im kinda just ranting here now. idk does anyone have any advice for first timers ? im worried about smelling down there. i wont know what to do with my hands. i dont even think i know how to make out properly ?!?!? he says im good but like he could just be telling me that idk 😭. also the thought of like him having hyped himself up this whole time n it's completely mediocre?! like what if i dont cum ?! what do i wear ? do i do my makeup ? do i take of my glasses ?!?!,! c